Today I woke up feeling optimistic that things would somehow be different. Unfortunately this isn’t the case. I feel so frustrated and annoyed and anxious. I broke down yesterday night and couldn’t help myself from screaming from all the pain that’s inside of me right now. It felt really good to let it all out and for some reason I thought that was the key to getting myself better. 

I still feel the same as I have done for the past 2.5 weeks though there is some small improvements. I have to remain optimistic that things will get better and it may take time. It’s so frustrating as I am the type of person who likes to see some progress or results as soon as possible. I know that this isn’t one of those times I can wish for it. I have to slowly but surely chip away at it until things start to get better. I suppose that hope is the only thing keeping me going right now. 

I decided to start this new blog to write down thoughts and share with you some of the coping skills in have learned throughout my process of trying to get better and break away from my anxiety.
I have been struggling with severe anxiety, panic attacks and depersonalization for almost 2 years now. I had recently been feeling much better and felt like I was coming into my own, but within the last 2 weeks for some reason things changed. I am continually trying to figure out how to cope with this newer situation as now it feels unbareable to even go out the front door.
I have been trying my best to preoccupy myself with my knitting projects and have found some aspects of the Linden method to be helpful in talking myself down from a panic attack. A lot of it has to do with breathing deeply and slowly, and slowing down your heart rate which always feels out of wack. Secondly, it is important to note that I am responsible for my panic attacks as my brain has been trained to think that it is constantly in a state of panic, even though there is none in sight.
Each day I try to push myself as much as possible to try to break this cycle of panic and anxiety, even though I find it really hard.
If you too are suffering from anxiety, please let me know some of the coping skills you are using. Perhaps by sharing we can learn t o be panic attack free!